Episode 46: P & SAD

P returns to explain his 18-week absence. He's been struggling with Seasonal Affective Disorder and a myriad of losses. Although P is still in a bad mental space, he felt he owed our listenership an explanation.

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Dan and Paul are both men of color who suffer from, and openly talk about their mental illnesses. The goal of this podcast is to help further destigmatize mental illness in minority communities where we’re traditionally taught to suffer in silence. We have suffered in silence for far too long. It’s our hope that listeners walk away knowing that it is ok to talk about it, it’s ok to feel, it’s ok to seek help, and most importantly you’re not alone. Join us bi-weekly as we discuss our experiences, tips, and have conversations with occasional guests about all things mental health related.

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  • Episode 46: P & SAD

    P returns to explain his 18-week absence. He's been struggling with Seasonal Affective Disorder and a myriad of losses. Although P is still in a bad mental space, he felt he owed our listenership an explanation.

  • Episode 45: I’m Broke as a Joke!

    Dan wanted to dispel the rumor started by his brothers Haize and AJ that he was rich lol. Although a joke, it led to this episode's topic being finances, financial responsibility, and financial insecurity. As discussed in prior episodes, Dan is an 8th-grade dropout with a GED who grew up in extreme poverty. He talks about not knowing the value of a dollar until his early 20s. Since then he's lived with what he calls a "poor mentality" in order to prevent spending money unnecessarily and saving every dollar like it's his last.

  • Episode 44: The Social Network.

    Dan talks about how he has been trying to be more social with more people "offline" this year. In an attempt to meet new and positive people he shares how his experiences have been less than ideal and only confirmed what he already knew... he hates people. The most frustrating thing has been trying to explain his anxiety disorder and having people disregard it offering "simple solutions" to complex medical problems.

  • Episode 43: “Thoughts and Prayers.”

    Dan talks about how hearing things like "it's going to be ok," "God's got it," "pray on it," and "I'm praying for you" all irritate him. Especially since in his experience none of these are associated with or yielded anything positive.

  • Episode 42: Insecure.

    Dan discusses some of his insecurities, things like his body image, fear of failure, and rejection. Most people (especially men) don't like sharing their insecurities because they can easily become "weak" spots that can be used to cause hurt.

  • Episode 41: Patience.

    Dan shares how he used to be one of the most impatient people that he knew. Every single thing that happened was an emergency and needed an immediate response. Dan didn't learn to have patience until he had way too much on his plate. Being unable to prioritize he still treated everything as an emergency. This led to him burning himself out and becoming depressed/stressed.

  • Episode 40: Positive Energy.

    In episode 40, Dan discusses the lack of positivity in his life. He was exposed to negative people, a negative environment, and negative situations throughout his entire childhood and his teenage years. Dan's anxiety disorder and worst-case thinking make him feel like he's carried that negative energy with him well into adulthood where he unintentionally passes it on to the people closest to him.

  • Episode 39: Becoming a Man Without a Father.

    Dan discusses how he thinks not having a father affected him. Single-parent households are not unique or uncommon at all, especially in communities of color. Since Dan never had a father figure to use as a point of reference, he doesn't know how truly affected he is by not having one. He can only speculate and share some of his childhood memories. Dan shares how he sought approval and recognition from some of the older guys in his neighborhood, many of who were criminals and deadbeat fathers themselves. The irony!

  • Episode 38: I Like What I Like.

    To tell someone that what they like is "stupid" is disrespectful and abusive. People like what they like, period. Dan talks about liking things that weren't necessarily popular or considered acceptable in his neighborhood growing up. Things like listening to Rock n Roll, playing Chess, and playing the violin and piano. He also knows what it's like for people he's close to not to be interested in things he likes and vice versa. It's ok. Everyone isn't going to like the exact same things as each other.

  • Episode 37: I Refuse to Compromise.

    With the holidays approaching Dan talks about why he will be spending Thanksgiving alone and gives some tips on dealing with people who don't want to attend functions during the holidays. He also talks about why he's specifically instructed Becky to not give him a funeral when he dies (or bury him). Dan also talks about how his refusal to compromise and how he's usually very clear about what he wants and attempts to leave no room for interpretation.